Razan Khatib's commentary on life on/off the web

east, west…now weast?

For as long as I remember, I wanted to live in the west where I can find like-minded people around me, where I was free to live whatever kind of lifestyle I wanted for my self.

The problem was defined and the solution was known.

I didn’t belong in Amman, so I managed to leave to Canada.

Yet with all the fun and great experiences I had that year; I still felt like a stranger in a strange land.

Coming back to Amman, nothing changed either, I still don’t belong here as well but that escape, that doorway is closed now. That solution of just leaving Amman and finding my self elsewhere has lost its magic. Its a done deal. This realization that you can never live the kind of life you want 100% anywhere is a bugger and now its going to be a lifetime bugger, the never ending Quest of liberal Arabs to find a place for themselves…

So a fusion of Amman and Toronto? for now its more Amman, and the bit of Toronto I can create every now and then!

1 Comment so far

  1. Zeina on March 20th, 2008

    I read that post as if I’d written it myself a while back…
    Thinking about the east/west dichotomy takes up most of my idle time. You know, the time where you have a minute to think about something outside of your direct environment. In those moments I’m often thankful for the beautiful mess that is the internet…relatively un-knowledgeable of its inner workings as I may be.

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